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⚠Trigger Warning; the following poem contains subject matter pertaining to graphic language, substance abuse, suicidal ideation and opinions on religion that some might find offensive⚠
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I do not deserve the name I was given-- Jade, after the (semi) precious gemstone. Girls named Jade are not supposed to
give strangers the finger
more often than
they hug their mothers
or say the word fuck more often than they tell their fathers that they love them--
are not supposed to say (or write) the word fuck
at all. And here I am, having banged out the word fuck
t̶w̶i̶c̶e̶
thrice
upon my typewriter.
Real charmer,
aren't I?
Undressing in front
of open windows
just for the fucking
(four times.)
sake of it.
Pounding tequila shots
as I grind against the moonlight,
Lana Del Rey's lyrics
throbbing from the speakers:
"My pussy tastes like Pepsi Cola..."
Girls named Jade are not supposed to
get plastered on school nights
(and tipsy before class)
or listen to music
(and the music is always too loud.)
about pussy. They don't say (or write) the word
pussy
either. I've always had a potty mouth-- this is what a man from church
had told me at eight years old
when I said "piss" in front of him.
Girls named Jade are supposed to go to church every Sunday-- are supposed to believe in god. Instead,
I outgrow religion by the time I am sixteen (perhaps even before then),
only ever consulting the bible when I need inspiration for some tragic poem narrating the pangs of betrayal.
(It was not Womankind
who betrayed god,
but god who betrayed Womankind
just like I have betrayed
my own name.)
The only thing I have ever truly believed in is
poetry.
Girls named Jade
are not supposed to
write poetry the way
I write poetry--
all sex & drugs & rock n' roll
tundras & hurricanes
infernos & molten lava
blood & violent minds
suicide & broken hearts
& broken hearts
& broken hearts
& broken hearts
& purple souls--
Girls named Jade are supposed to wear their souls in the colour green.
Image Source:
Foliage sprouting from televisions static gif (n.d.). [image] Available at: http://www.lowgif.com/view.htmly [Accessed 22 Apr. 2020]
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