The Self-Harm Diaries (volume vi ~ 卌)

⚠Trigger Warning; the following poem contains subject matter pertaining to self-harm ⚠

I would records tally marks

on my wrists

in ballpoint pen

every time something

unfortunate happened.

Got a bad grade?

Said the wrong thing?

Mistreated by a friend?

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Loved someone too hard

(but not be loved back)?

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And It was only

under the cover of

privacy

in a washroom stall during class

or under the scalding pour of the shower

or after midnight atop white bed sheets

that I would trace the ink

with a razor blade.

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"What are those marks," he asked her.

"Oh," she whispered, "Just reminders for something I need to do later."

Image Source:

Tally marks etched into girl's face gif (n.d.). [image] Available at: https://weheartit.com/entry/48479901 [Accessed 27 feb. 2020].