~
You say the rain is
beautiful,
yet you judge me for crying.
~
If I went to school with you,
chances are
you've probably seen me cry
(and I cry a lot).
I would like to thank those
who consoled me during
my epoch of sadness,
one that reached out before me
like bubblegum stretched
to ligaments between nervous fingers
(I don't chew gum often,
but those fingers belonged to me).
Your kindness
is remembered warmly.
But to those of you who
criticized me incessantly.
Called me
cry baby. overdramatic. weak. behind my back;
to those of you
who deliberately concealed
the truth from me--
unfortunate truths, they were
but truths that concerned
my reputation, nonetheless--
because you felt the need to
spare yourselves from the
discomfort and annoyance
my tears would bring you;
to those of you who
labelled me as if I were a
cardboard delivery box
containing fine china--
FRAGILE,
HANDLE WITH CARE
(REFRAIN FROM HONESTY):
your remarkable lack of compassion
serves you no purpose.
There is nothing noble
about making a satire of
other people's sorrow.
Being a stoic does not make
you stronger than me.
You cannot possibly comprehend
the strength I carry.
Many times I have shattered
and many times--
every time--
I have put myself back together again.
I conquer the Olympus of jigsaw pieces
that my heart has crumbled to,
place each fragment of myself
between my teeth,
letting the cardboard and paint
melt against my tongue
like Listerine breath strips.
Despite the bitter aftertaste of broken,
I feast until I am whole again.
I cry.
I lick my wounds.
And then I heal--
I always heal.
And my dreaded stoics,
you could heal too
if it weren't for your
self-righteous denial of
the deluge.
Watch me drink from its waters,
toast in acknowledgement to the pain.
My pain.
I let myself feel
as I am meant to feel.
I let myself break
as I am meant to break.
And I hope one day
you come to learn
that there is
nothing
braver than that.
~
Whenever I shatter,
the Gods scream
"Opa!"
in celebration.
Because they know very well that
broken I shall not remain.
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Flowers and cutlery gif (n.d.). [image] Available at: https://giphy.com/gifs/art-hoppip-10QdySFACFc6VG [Accessed 11 Jul. 2019].
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