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  • Writer's pictureYours Truly

Note To (Younger) Self




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⚠️Trigger Warning: The following poem contains subject matter pertaining to suicidal ideation and self-harm⚠️

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If they:


- Don’t clean up after themselves when they stay overnight


- Are mean to your dog


- Never give you a standing ovation in drama class

(even though the rest of the class does and even though you fucking deserve one)


- Only want to be around when their other friends are not available


-Treat you like a second choice


-Ditch you when you’re drunk and sad at a party to go get McDonald's


-Exclude you from slumber parties and other gatherings


-Get angry at you for crying


- Purposely withhold bad news because they expect you to cry

(which will make them angry)


- Tell you where to cut so you don't get caught, and then diagnose themselves with compassion fatigue when you do cut yourself --because, suddenly, you are too much to handle.


-Get angry at you for being suicidal


-Get offended when you call them out on their bull shit instead of apologizing


-Chastise you for saying something negative about one of their other friends but fail to stand up to their other friends when they talk shit about you


- Stop whispering when you enter a room


-Refuse to tell you any of their secrets but collect your secrets like postage stamps


- Take advantage of your generosity (both material and emotional) even though they haven’t once paid for your dinner


-Basically patronize you at any given opportunity


- Don’t call you when they come back into town


- Don’t even tell you when they come back into town


- Make you want to die


then they are not your " friend"

 

If you have to put

"friend"

in quotations marks,

then they are not your

friend.

 

If you've fantasized about

killing yourself

and them leaving

them a cassette tape

with their name on it

like Hannah Baker does

in Thirteen Reasons Why,


then


they. are. not. your. friend.

 

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