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An Overthought Prose On Why I Fear My Own Image

Updated: Aug 24, 2020


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I want to post a selfie.


I want to post a selfie, but my Instagram profile is public.


I want to post a selfie, but my Instagram profile is public because I am trying to establish a name for myself as a photographer.


I want to post a selfie, but my Instagram profile is public because I am trying to establish a name for myself as a photographer; only, I am terrified of the porn bots that watch my stories, the anonymous saves and shares I receive on my self-portraits.


I want to post a selfie, but my Instagram profile is public because I am trying to establish a name for myself as a photographer; only, I am terrified of the porn bots that watch my stories, the anonymous saves and shares I receive on my self-portraits. Terrified that my face will be pillaged and sold to erotic sites without my consent--that men will ejaculate to my image.


I want to post a selfie, but my Instagram profile is public because I am trying to establish a name for myself as a photographer; only, I am terrified of the porn bots that watch my stories, the anonymous saves and shares I receive on my self-portraits. Terrified that my face will be pillaged and sold to erotic sites without my consent--that men will ejaculate to my image.


An afterthought:

does this mean I am sexy?


I want to post a selfie, but my Instagram profile is public because I am trying to establish a name for myself as a photographer; only, I am terrified of the porn bots that watch my stories, the anonymous saves and shares I receive on my self-portraits. Terrified that my face will be pillaged and sold to erotic sites without my consent--that men will ejaculate to my image.


An afterthought:

does this mean I am sexy?


An afterthought:

isn't it sad that, as a woman, it takes being (potentially) objectified and exploited to feel beautiful?


I want to post a selfie, but my Instagram profile is public because I am trying to establish a name for myself as a photographer; only, I am terrified of the porn bots that watch my stories, the anonymous saves and shares I receive on my self-portraits. Terrified that my face will be pillaged and sold to erotic sites without my consent--that men will ejaculate to my image.

An afterthought:

does this mean I am sexy?


An afterthought:

Isn't it sad that, as a woman, it takes being (potentially) objectified and exploited to feel beautiful?


An afterthought:

Isn't it sad that this beauty is accompanied by terror?

 

Image Source:

Flowers arranged into gas mask gif (n.d.). [image] Available at: https://wifflegif.com/gifs/112921-portrait-flowers-gif [Accessed 12 Jul. 2020]

 
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